Been feeling like that for a while now! Though the view is amazing- I’m not one for heights, but - I guess I’ve got to get used to this.
So much in my life is changing, the kids are growing up and moving on in their lives, my parents are aging and needing more help, and I’m finally able to pursue some of my artistic dreams. But all of this change has me feeling a lot of vertigo- just like standing on the edge of a cliff!
As my children all leave the nest, literally leaving and moving far away, my motherhood is being redefined. My mothering and homeschooling years have been the most wonderful and fulfilling so far in my life. They have also been the most challenging and hardest years! Though I am very excited about the path forward with my art and the children’s books I’m illustrating, there is also an emptiness inside. So many unknowns and challenges ahead- there is that vertigo again…. feeling dizzy.
Sometimes in life , we just have to make ourselves stand on the edge of the cliff, look bravely out and enjoy the view, while my instinct is to run back and hide safely, far away from the edge. Missing out on the experience of this amazing view… would be a sad thing!!
